Category: Memoirs of James Pate Williams Jr

Preface: I write from my experience of seventy-five (75) days in the Troup County Jail. Most of my jail-time was in Booking 704 then Booking 703. I was under a potential suicide watch for part of my time in the system.

The Troup County Jail staff puts the safety of all inmates at the top of their list of priorities. People who are vulnerable to physical abuse are kept out of the general population and usually isolated in either the Isolation suite of cells or Booking. I was fortunate enough to be able to observe the jail staff use what I term the “Group Hug” (from the PBS show the Teletubbies). The group hug is used to subdue a potentially violent inmate by three or more staff slowly converging on someone acting out with at least one with her/his Taser drawn and ready if necessary. The inmate usually submits peacefully to this combination of action and rational talk.

The food is limited to approximately 1800 calories per day. The nutrition is of acceptable quality and is pretty good but often server cool rather than warm or hot.

1.  Wednesday, May 8, 2019
2.  Wednesday, June 12, 2019
3.  Thursday, October 17, 2019

There are at least three females that have touched my heart, mind, and human essence that are currently missing in action. Namely, in alphabetical order by first name:

1. Cyndi(a) Darlene Burks Burden also known as Lisa
2. Merry B., RN, etc.
3. Yvonne Marie Greene, MD, etc.

I would love to develop nontoxic close relationships with all three women. Currently, I believe I have a better chance of finding 1, but I hope to locate and see up close and personal 2 and 3. I realize that 2 and 3 are long shots, but I will not be satisfied until 2 and 3 reject me outright of their own mouths. The staff at Pathways Center both Second Season and the Pathways Center Troup Outpatient Mental Health Clinic are shielding Merry B. from me for some unknown ethical, legal, or moral reason.

I woke up at about 8:30 PM or so, looked at my email and called a client to see how to act on a business issue. We wound up talking far too long about confidential information I have no need to know. Anyway, after the conversation I went and worked out for a little over 30 minutes at Planet Fitness. I then came home changed pants and proceeded to the Main Street Pub. There I purchased a Blue Moon with orange slice which was $5.25 with generous tip. I need to stay out of bars, but I did get a buzz from one beer due to my daytime medication. On the way home I tried to get a dollar changed to four quarters to buy a Troup County News, but Summit on Greenwood Street was locked down due to a timid cashier. There have been robberies in the area so I can’t blame the employee’s caution. I was home before 12:15 AM on Friday, January 10, 2020. I am going to wait a while before taking my nighttime medication of a 25 mg generic Vistaril and 50 mg Trazadone.

I just took a walking tour of beautiful downtown LaGrange, Georgia. I carried an umbrella in case I needed to fend off an under-armed robber. Unfortunately, my recent 1013 into Pathways Center Second Season took away my ability to apply for a concealed weapon carry permit. You must be away from involuntary internments for at least five years before exercising your Second Amendment rights. I would choose either a Taurus .380 (9 mm x 17 mm Browning) or a Glock 19 (9 mm x 19 mm Parabellum by George Luger).

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I called Hortense Lindsey McFarland at Pathways Center Second Season of Lagrange, Troup, Georgia, to see if Tameka Cooper was available to talk to me. That telephone call occurred between 4:30 AM and 5:00 AM in my estimation. Former U .S. Army Sergeant McFarland told me Tameka was on break. See Tameka and her alleged daughter Malaysia tried to convince me that the pregnant Malaysia was my daughter and her son was my grandson. Malaysia claimed to be ready to name her child Kannon Pate Williams. Matthew Riding who is a good friend of my Merry B. and Lauren Hornsby tried to convince me that Tameka and Malaysia were lying to me about their status in my family. Matt said their lies were to try to make me feel good. Anyway, Matt works at both Hope’s Corner and Second Season. Malaysia claims to be twenty-two, so she was born in either 1998 or 1999. I did not authorize anyone ever to take sperm from me so if I am a sperm donor it was done surreptitiously.

The early morning was chilly, clear, and beautiful with a waxing gibbous moon. The next full moon will be on Friday, January 10, 2020. The next new moon is on Friday, January 24, 2020.

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Re: Hot Meal Service Notion

Dear Staff,

If you are among the local churches that offer hot meals to the disenfranchised and downtrodden then I have a before and after lunch idea. Since you essentially have a captive audience, may I suggest you offer some GED and higher or lower educational tutoring before and after the hot meal. I am a former volunteer GED volunteer teacher at West Georgia Technical College in 2011. I am available to volunteer to tutor in mathematics and sciences almost any day and time. My landline telephone number is 706-416-2594 and you have my email address. I hope to hear back from your organization.

Sincerely,

James Pate Williams, Jr., BA, BS, MSwE, PhD

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Re: Gambling Demographics

Dear Chief of Police Lou Dekmar and Captain Pheil,

The premier gambling casinos in the world still call Las Vegas, Nevada home. Prior to the millennials becoming interested in video game gambling, most gambling was done by the elderly probably white female population. Gambling and its concomitant problems: alcohol and drug abuse and prostitution are on the rebound in our society. One of the driving forces is multiplayer video game gambling. People get hooked on video game gambling since there is skill involved in playing video games. Slot machines also known as one-arm bandits are purely stochastic in nature. Our society can’t afford to become a gambling refuge for the planet. We need to teach the young of the perils of gambling where skill is involved. In other words, don’t let infants and young children get hooked early on video games provided by cellphones (smartphones and Internet connected tablet computers). The Internet of Everything (IoE) is going to kill all the social skills that we need to teach the young.

Sincerely,

James Pate Williams, Jr., BA, BS, MSwE, PhD

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Currently, I am torn between two potential lovers: Cyndi(a) Darlene Burks-Burden, age 55, and former Pathways Second Season nurse, Merry B., age 43 or 44. Both are beautiful females in my humble opinion, but they have their own baggage to bring to any male-female relationship. Cyndi is a sometimes-recovering opioid addict, who needs methadone  and Medically Assisted Therapy to reach a state of virtual normality. Merry B. has two big dogs, a Great Dane and a Siberian Huskie, and two male children, one 20 and at home and one 25 living on his own. I just want the opportunity to get in a healthy (non-toxic) relationship with both women, however, I am not go chasing  after either of these females. I think that Merry B. has written me off and said good riddance to me. I don’t know about what Cyndi(a) is doing now.

I am no prize package. I have a mercurial temperament. I am very quick to anger and self-loathing. I appear arrogant sometimes, but this is a defense mechanism for low self-esteem. The psycho-socio-economic programs I have been sentenced to practice have ripped away many of my decent and good qualities. I feel that our town, county, state and country have just used and abused me.

My sister and representative payee, Susan Williams Harrison, is late with the minuscule amount of money that I receive from the federal government for my alleged brain chemical anomaly: psycho-sociopath or paranoid schizophrenic or schizoid-effective or bipolar or some form of autism, etc. It amounts to approximately $750 plus or minus some dollars every month. How in the heck do the people of the United States expect me to live on that small amount of money? I have been used as a psychological warfare sub rosa (under the table, surreptitious) and unpaid Guinea pig for Molly Hale’s nonexistent agency since at least 1998 and probably earlier. I have been a subject of observation and an unremunerated experiment for “no such agency” since at least the 1980s and more vigorously in the period 2010 to 2019. I have applied to all sorts of federal agencies and departments since I received my terminal degree in December 2005, and I have only garnered two in-depth telephone interviews in 2010 and about 2016 and three live interviews for our current President and Commander-in-Chief Donald J. Trump in 2018 and 2019. I did at least three tests for “no such agency” before that organization decided to see me live and in-person three times at a cost of around $650 or $700 USD air fare and hotel accommodations per round trip at the taxpayers’ expense. I am sorry I got so angry and frustrated after my last rejection sometime in early 2019 after I came back from my “final” in-person interview on Tuesday, January 8, 2019. I had run out of my then current medication of ABILIFY and levothyroxine on Tuesday, January 8, 2019. I tried calling Pathways Center Outpatient Mental Health Clinic of Troup County to get my medications refilled but the staff wanted to put me off for more than two weeks. Thus, began my rapidly downhill spiral into the not so wonderful world of fun blown psychosis and madness.

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Re: Chemical Castration by James Pate Williams, Jr., BA, BS, MSwE, PhD

Some states are forcing sex offenders to be chemically castrated. I agree if the procedure is completely reversible. The United Kingdom was going to chemically castrate Alan Mathison Turing and took away his clearance. That directly led to Alan killing himself via taking a chemical that leads to hydrogen cyanide in the bloodstream. Adolph Hitler used a similar chemical agent, but he also shot himself with a 9 mm x 19 mm Luger semi-automatic pistol.

I hope the combination of ABILIFY, ZYPREXA, and VISTARIL are not chemically castrating me. Since 1983 I have only tried to have vaginal sex a few times to no avail. The last time I tried was either earlier this year or last year. I always attributed my impotence to old age, but it is probably due to the anti-psychotics I must take to stay sane. I guess I might have to take Pfizer’s little blue pill namely Viagra. I do have hope that the vein mapping ultrasonic procedure I am scheduled to have on Thursday, January 30, 2020 will help with my libido and virility.

Thanks,

Pate

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